SOON after I started preparing for the Central Superior Services (CSS) exami-nation, I started having a variety of health issues, causing frustration and despondence. I failed to figure things out initially, but then professional help made me realise where I was wrong.

As CSS requires rigorous writing practice and a vast syllabus to cover, many aspirants begin their preparation by isolating themselves and even locking themselves in their rooms. I did the same, and that was a massive mistake.

There were obvious behavioural and physical health changes soon afterwards. The world seemed unworthy, and I felt disconnected from my family and friends. These were the early symptoms of anxiety, which soon took a toll on my digestive system.

Hailing from a deprived district in Sindh, I did not have the privilege of developing my English reading and writing skills in the early years. I was trying to focus on improving those skills, but was unable to do anything worthwhile. My health issues forced me to actually abandon my studies.

After consulting various doctors, I realised that isolation was the wrong approach. I needed social interaction and fresh air. With the right guidance, I got back on track and developed my reading and writing skills. I am now looking forward to sitting the next CSS exam fully prepared.

This experience of mine exposed the dark side of isolating oneself for preparation. If one invests ample time in self-improvement, say, two years to refine English language skills, there is no need to lock oneself away.

By dedicating just two hours to writing and two hours to reading consistently, one can develop these skills without facing the issues that I did.

Manoj Kumar Kesrani
Matli

Published in Dawn, February 25th, 2025