November 24, 2007

Everybody claims that he/she understands the importance of ‘father’ but actually they don’t. I think nobody can better understand the importance of father than those whose fathers are no more in this world and I’m one of those unlucky persons. Now I regret for those moments when I didn’t listen to my father, when I didn’t care for him and thought he will remain with me forever.

After spending beautiful 11 years, nine months with my father a horrific day came when my colourful world turned into a ruin, when my heart stopped beating, everything started to fade and a tear slipped as a diamond rolling down the cheek, and my life shattered. That was the moment when my beloved father left this world.

My father was such a great and beloved man that he was the best friend of all children in our family, a shoulder to cry on for every troubled soul and a generous man for all needy but he didn’t express his own pains to me, his daughter.

On December 1, 2006 he came back from a foreign tour. He said he had been experiencing stomach ache for some days. He consulted with a doctor who had some tests done and revealed that he had been suffering from liver cancer. But dad didn’t tell me anything and enjoyed with me all parties as he used to do in the past. The time passed and gradually his condition deteriorated. Then came a day when he had to be hospitalised; he had become so weak that no one could have ever thought of it. He still had courage and enthusiasm on his face to express that he will soon get well but he knew from within that he wouldn’t survive… When I met him for the last time he was in such a poor condition in which no daughter would have ever imagined to see her father. I couldn’t stop crying.

The next day I woke up early and saw my mother was crying, she was worried about me. I asked her with my hands and feet frozen … she told me that my father had left all of us last night. For a moment, my entire existence shattered. Then everyone made me realise that although he is not here physically, he can see me, he can feel my happiness as well as sorrows, and when I will see my face in the mirror, I will see him because he will live in my heart forever.

Lucky are those who can say ‘I love you’ to their dad and get a reply. I just want to say one thing that live your life considering everyday as the last day of your life, may be there won’t be any tomorrow. Go and hug your dad and mom as if it’s the last day of life.